I tell myself...

My daughter goes to me asking for a hug when I know all she wanted was to sit on my lap. She does this every time Im in front of the computer emptying my thoughts on blogs I wanted to write. –hay.. I hope she falls asleep early tonight, I tell myself.

She grabs my hand and insists that we color the scribbles she made on a piece of paper she picked up somewhere. Reluctantly I do as she wants and silently I pray – please let her sleep early tonight so I can do whatever it is I wanted to do without interruptions, I tell myself.

In the mornings she would run to me just when I am enjoying my cup of coffee. She wants to run and play ‘cat and mouse’ with me. – hay I wish she could go and play with her dolls so I can watch the news with my cup of coffee, I tell myself. 

She insists on climbing my back for a piggy back ride before we head off to take a shower. She doesn’t want anybody else to bathe her, only mommy! – just a few more years and my back will be spared of this, I tell myself. 

…and on and on I convince myself to be patient about the little things my little girl does that bother me.

And as I watch my little girl sleeping in her bed one time, I realized the importance of each little moment with her. How important it is for me to treasure each second she wants to spend with me. Then I ask myself… How many years does God give a mom to spend with her child exclusively? How many years does a child crave for the attention of only mommy or daddy? 

And then it hit me hard that as a child grows, her independence grows with her. Sooner or later,she will no longer want mommy or daddy’s attention. She will crave for the company of friends more than me. 

Before I fade into the background, I realized how truly important each moment spent with my little girl is. It doesn’t matter if I have tons of things to do. I can always make time for coloring and drawing sessions, for games of ‘cat and mouse’ or tickling match, for long piggy-back rides before showers. I have to make do with the time I get to spend with her. When its “only mommy” and no one else completes her world and so I tell myself. =)